Your writing really speaks to me, and like making eye contact with a stranger in the crowd at a concert, reading it makes me feel like it was written just for me. But its not, obviously, there are so many ofus that feel this, live like this, havent set an alarm in a decade but know that the anxiety and 3am wakeups would be there either way. Its a matter of choice, and choosing not to ask permission as an adult to go to the dentist (or for a bathroom break for that matter). Anyhow, thank you, I feel seen.
It's definitely not about winning or losing but more about what your soul and secret heart can live with. It's also not really about happy or sad because they're two sides of the same coin and if you have the coin in your pocket, you get both in equal measures. I often read your substack and feel happy to know that there's someone else out there who lives a life like mine. I used to ask myself "what have I done" but we know what we did. We know what we traded for what. I already bought a year to your substack and lordy I could barely afford that! But that's just solidarity sister. And when it expires, I'll do it again. I'm rooting for you! and for your slice of agency in this mad world.
Yes, it’s how it works. I am in the shape I’m in and it’s other artists, writers, artisans and working class dreamers that are my strongest supporters. And I feel the same way, how could I dare ask for patronage if I’m not supporting others the same way?! So I subscribe to some substacks as a paying reader, or buy things from craftspeople and neighbors, or hit subscribe and like on every YouTube vid I like, or anything that puts money and energy behind other makers and creators struggling. Would I have an extra $50-$80 bucks a month if I didn’t? Sure. But that’s not the kind of money that matters in the big picture if it’s my name behind a payment helping someone else live the life they want.
Hi, as I was up in the middle of the night thinking instead of sleeping, my thoughts turned to Cold Antler Farm and I wondered if Farm Aid might be of help? They give emergency grants and have a resource hotline. https://www.farmaid.org/our-work/grants/
Your writing really speaks to me, and like making eye contact with a stranger in the crowd at a concert, reading it makes me feel like it was written just for me. But its not, obviously, there are so many ofus that feel this, live like this, havent set an alarm in a decade but know that the anxiety and 3am wakeups would be there either way. Its a matter of choice, and choosing not to ask permission as an adult to go to the dentist (or for a bathroom break for that matter). Anyhow, thank you, I feel seen.
Ashley, thank you so much, this means the world!
It's definitely not about winning or losing but more about what your soul and secret heart can live with. It's also not really about happy or sad because they're two sides of the same coin and if you have the coin in your pocket, you get both in equal measures. I often read your substack and feel happy to know that there's someone else out there who lives a life like mine. I used to ask myself "what have I done" but we know what we did. We know what we traded for what. I already bought a year to your substack and lordy I could barely afford that! But that's just solidarity sister. And when it expires, I'll do it again. I'm rooting for you! and for your slice of agency in this mad world.
Yes, it’s how it works. I am in the shape I’m in and it’s other artists, writers, artisans and working class dreamers that are my strongest supporters. And I feel the same way, how could I dare ask for patronage if I’m not supporting others the same way?! So I subscribe to some substacks as a paying reader, or buy things from craftspeople and neighbors, or hit subscribe and like on every YouTube vid I like, or anything that puts money and energy behind other makers and creators struggling. Would I have an extra $50-$80 bucks a month if I didn’t? Sure. But that’s not the kind of money that matters in the big picture if it’s my name behind a payment helping someone else live the life they want.
Hello! Mind if I Venmo a tip instead? Don’t have PayPal. 🫤
That’s very kind! Venmo is jennawog, pic is me in aviators 😎
Hi, as I was up in the middle of the night thinking instead of sleeping, my thoughts turned to Cold Antler Farm and I wondered if Farm Aid might be of help? They give emergency grants and have a resource hotline. https://www.farmaid.org/our-work/grants/